Dear Mesmerizing Meg: Okay, so a Coach/Trainer asked if he could use my premises for a daylong workshop he was conducting. He further added that I could attend it too. No money was discussed at all. And during the conversations there was no talk about any fee that I would need to remit. Initially, IContinue reading “Mesmerizing Meg is on call today!”
Tag Archives: rejection
Blip on the Radar.
I’m sort of sleepy and demoralized, but I actually feel quite good. I realized that the guy I liked, who I’ll refer to as Blip on the Radar, didn’t trigger my feelings of self-hatred and my belief that I deserved to be abused as a child, because I find value in myself now and don’tContinue reading “Blip on the Radar.”
Not at my level.
Do you all know that guy I liked who lives in Thailand? Well, he just dumped me, although I don’t think that’s the right word. I finally asked him if he wanted to be friends with me, because I was confused by his sporadic communication and his tendency to answer my messages without ever initiatingContinue reading “Not at my level.”
Online dating: bad for the soul!
So, online dating is draining. It feels, first of all, like a soulless endeavor. So shallow and probably geared toward sex. I have nothing against sex, but sex alone without connection and commitment and a deep and abiding love for each other is meaningless. Even though I automatically eliminate the men who admit to lookingContinue reading “Online dating: bad for the soul!”
STEVIL!!
I had a bit of a breakthrough last night. I was lying in bed, and I asked myself, how far back does my relationship-pattern issue go? Like, has it been there my whole adult life, or what? And the answer came to me: Stevil! Steve is my next-door neighbor. I met him while walking around theContinue reading “STEVIL!!”
Really difficult menstrual cycle.
I went to the post office. Seeing that guy again filled me with hatred. Although, to get technical, I didn’t “see” him because I refused to even let his physical energy field enter into mine. All I perceived was low-level filth coming from across the counter. I’ve been thinking about this pattern I have, andContinue reading “Really difficult menstrual cycle.”
Cursed!
TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE So I’ve been thinking about my relationship issues and the abuse I suffered as a child. Ashley Leia thinks I engage in “splitting,” which is a concept from borderline personality disorder. Based on what I understand, it involves seeing people as all good or all bad (black and white without any gray)Continue reading “Cursed!”
More eBay scammers afoot!
So, I listed a huge lot of magazines on eBay. They’re my dad’s old magazines that he’s already read. A buyer who I’ll call Matt (because that’s his name) contacted me and asked for a lower deal. I had the “make an offer” feature selected, so I agreed on a rock-bottom price with him andContinue reading “More eBay scammers afoot!”
