I’m feeling pretty bad now, obviously. I feel rather deeply that Georg led me on with wanton abandon. I’ve called him out for it, because that’s what I do. But it has left me feeling as if I somehow failed in my reaction, as though I should be better able to handle this level ofContinue reading “It doesn’t exist!”
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… stays in Prague, apparently!
Because, he has a girlfriend. (Of course he does.) I figured I’d take things to the next level today by ditching Sonya. He balked at that and arranged for me, him, and a friend of his to go out tomorrow. I called him out on it, like, if you just want to be friends, that’sContinue reading “… stays in Prague, apparently!”
Go Meg, go!
I can’t believe this! The guy I like here in Prague seems to like me, too. That never happens! Only for other people! Never for Meg! Go me! His name is Georg. He’s such a dreamboat. In my honor, and referring to me as the guest of honor, he brought home-cooked food to the writersContinue reading “Go Meg, go!”
Mesmerizing Meg is on call today!
Dear Mesmerizing Meg: Okay, so a Coach/Trainer asked if he could use my premises for a daylong workshop he was conducting. He further added that I could attend it too. No money was discussed at all. And during the conversations there was no talk about any fee that I would need to remit. Initially, IContinue reading “Mesmerizing Meg is on call today!”
Blip on the Radar.
I’m sort of sleepy and demoralized, but I actually feel quite good. I realized that the guy I liked, who I’ll refer to as Blip on the Radar, didn’t trigger my feelings of self-hatred and my belief that I deserved to be abused as a child, because I find value in myself now and don’tContinue reading “Blip on the Radar.”
Not at my level.
Do you all know that guy I liked who lives in Thailand? Well, he just dumped me, although I don’t think that’s the right word. I finally asked him if he wanted to be friends with me, because I was confused by his sporadic communication and his tendency to answer my messages without ever initiatingContinue reading “Not at my level.”
Online dating: bad for the soul!
So, online dating is draining. It feels, first of all, like a soulless endeavor. So shallow and probably geared toward sex. I have nothing against sex, but sex alone without connection and commitment and a deep and abiding love for each other is meaningless. Even though I automatically eliminate the men who admit to lookingContinue reading “Online dating: bad for the soul!”
STEVIL!!
I had a bit of a breakthrough last night. I was lying in bed, and I asked myself, how far back does my relationship-pattern issue go? Like, has it been there my whole adult life, or what? And the answer came to me: Stevil! Steve is my next-door neighbor. I met him while walking around theContinue reading “STEVIL!!”
Really difficult menstrual cycle.
I went to the post office. Seeing that guy again filled me with hatred. Although, to get technical, I didn’t “see” him because I refused to even let his physical energy field enter into mine. All I perceived was low-level filth coming from across the counter. I’ve been thinking about this pattern I have, andContinue reading “Really difficult menstrual cycle.”
Cursed!
TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE So I’ve been thinking about my relationship issues and the abuse I suffered as a child. Ashley Leia thinks I engage in “splitting,” which is a concept from borderline personality disorder. Based on what I understand, it involves seeing people as all good or all bad (black and white without any gray)Continue reading “Cursed!”
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