The week from hell is upon us, and it’s only Wednesday?!

If this week was a ship that I could valiantly leap off of, it would be “woman overboard!!!” in two seconds. Okay, it hasn’t been that bad. Meg, have you lost your mind? Pollyanna herself would quit playing the glad game at this point.  To recap a few points, on Monday I spent five mindnumbingContinue reading “The week from hell is upon us, and it’s only Wednesday?!”

“You’re fired!”

I fired my therapist. I honestly feel a bit traumatized. And I haven’t been right in the head since this went down. After I left therapy on Thursday, I swung by McDonald’s and got a huge bag of food. I entered the store with my mask on and placed my order, but the people workingContinue reading ““You’re fired!””

Rambling thoughts on abuse and healing.

I feel like I’ve been healing and purging myself of the past lately. And by “the past”, I mean the child abuse I experienced. My friend Ash pointed out to me earlier today that I’m too hard on myself, and that I don’t think I’m a good person. This is odd, yet true. I mean,Continue reading “Rambling thoughts on abuse and healing.”

Trying to reason through the weirdness.

I’ve been musing more about Stevil, my neighbor, who instilled in me this recurring relationship pattern of male friendship going badly awry when I ask to be more than friends. I’ve been wondering about the conversation that started it all: Why did he ask me if I’d been sexually abused? He said, “You seem toContinue reading “Trying to reason through the weirdness.”

STEVIL!!

I had a bit of a breakthrough last night. I was lying in bed, and I asked myself, how far back does my relationship-pattern issue go? Like, has it been there my whole adult life, or what?  And the answer came to me: Stevil! Steve is my next-door neighbor. I met him while walking around theContinue reading “STEVIL!!”

Cursed!

TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE So I’ve been thinking about my relationship issues and the abuse I suffered as a child. Ashley Leia thinks I engage in “splitting,” which is a concept from borderline personality disorder. Based on what I understand, it involves seeing people as all good or all bad (black and white without any gray)Continue reading “Cursed!”

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