The paranoid experience!

Ugh! I’m paranoid. I’ve been thinking as much for a few months now, maybe? I figured I’d blog about it. I also want to get more paranoia meds from Dr. Phlegm. Energetic pollution: when someone else’s energetic field pollutes mine. For example, if someone’s waiting in line behind me at the store. Energetic contamination: it’sContinue reading “The paranoid experience!”

Breakthrough!

I’ve had an epiphany. After discussing my issues with a lot of people, I’ve realized (or come to strongly suspect) that my anger issues are directly related to my mental illness(es), and that taking more medication could be helpful.  For one thing, that would make me feel so much better about myself, as if it’sContinue reading “Breakthrough!”

Lured to the dark side.

So, I thought I was close to my paternal aunt, Aunt Judy, but… a few things have gone wrong lately. A while back, she asked if I’ve managed to reconcile with my sister yet. The question rubbed me the wrong way because my sister is violent and has some dark-triad traits. She’s assaulted me sixContinue reading “Lured to the dark side.”

Paranoia attack at the fish fry!

It occurs to me that I have some thought pattern issues. I’ve never realized that because I associate negative cognitive schemas (bad thought patterns, which I learned about as a psych major) with depression. I’m not depressed, and it’s just never dawned on me that I have cognitive paranoia issues. I keep thinking about theContinue reading “Paranoia attack at the fish fry!”

I’m one of those kind, angry people. (Just run.)

Dear Annie: My mother separated from my father when I was 3. She left my father, who never came looking for us. She later married a wonderful man who loves me more than anything. When I was 15, a family member was able to get in touch with my biological father. The next day, heContinue reading “I’m one of those kind, angry people. (Just run.)”

Off the deep end!!

Yeah, I’ve gone off the deep end. I’m on my period, I’ve been freshly rejected by a guy (for both love and friendship–he apparently values neither), and then something happened today to bring all of my anger to the surface. I went to the ice-skating rink, and alas, there was a sign out front sayingContinue reading “Off the deep end!!”

Paranoia triggered!

Having conversed with that guy yesterday, it has raised some issues. No clue why, but I guess because we were discussing horrible happenings, like his friend doing years in prison for a crime he didn’t commit. I’m not sure why, but my mind went back to 2005, when I became psychotic. My mom responded byContinue reading “Paranoia triggered!”

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