That did NOT just happen. (Okay, it did.)

Ugh. It’s been a hard evening for me because of that visit to the state-appointed psychiatrist who thinks that depression and anxiety are the only mental illnesses. [Eyeroll.] If he overturns my disability, it should be easy to appeal and point out what limited space I was given to explain what happens when I goContinue reading “That did NOT just happen. (Okay, it did.)”

The cycle of shame.

For those of you who are following my diet journey, scroll down past the asterisks! 🙂 That part starts there. Everything before it is too depressing to read anyway. Oh! And, Emilia, you might want to skip this blog post. 🙂 Okay, so Charlie wrote back to me this morning thusly: Meg, We have threeContinue reading “The cycle of shame.”

Run with us.

Does anyone remember The Raccoons cartoon show? At the end of the program they always played the most beautiful theme music. Here’s the YouTube link, complete with a video. To the best of my knowledge, these lyrics are © Lisa Lougheed. When darkness falls, Leaving shadows in the night, Don’t be afraid, Wipe that fearContinue reading “Run with us.”

Paranoia triggered!

Having conversed with that guy yesterday, it has raised some issues. No clue why, but I guess because we were discussing horrible happenings, like his friend doing years in prison for a crime he didn’t commit. I’m not sure why, but my mind went back to 2005, when I became psychotic. My mom responded byContinue reading “Paranoia triggered!”

When the mothers talk…

I hate my mother. She called me this evening while I was watching Felicity Season 3, and she immediately started asking me if I have a cough or a fever. I was like, “Why would I have a cough or a fever?” And she launched into some sort of fearmongering response about the virus. She then spentContinue reading “When the mothers talk…”

The start of the breakdown.

I wound up chatting with Norton support yet again, this time accusing them of being scammers in several different ways. Then I had some sort of hysterical meltdown and told them how hurtful it was to see my blog, my diary, marked as a known dangerous web page. The guy apologized, which was nice. MostContinue reading “The start of the breakdown.”

Paranoia in the new world.

So, Mother wrote me what I hope is a good check, and I took it to the bank a few minutes ago. Each area where you could fill out the deposit/withdrawal paperwork had a thing of hand sanitizer. There were three or four more bottles of the stuff up at the teller counter. My problemContinue reading “Paranoia in the new world.”

I’m a bad, bad person.

So, I’m having some low self-esteem due to my recent candy theft. I can no longer say in good conscience that I’d never steal (not counting stealing if you’re starving and need food). No, I stole brazenly and for no good reason whatsoever. Geez, Megz. Well, this will teach me to be less self-righteous. I’mContinue reading “I’m a bad, bad person.”

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