I’m a dissociative person. Today something happened that has me scared to death. My Amazon Prime membership, which I re-enrolled in two days ago, was canceled. I contacted Amazon, and they said that I canceled it. And it didn’t get canceled because it expired. It literally got canceled by magic. The email that Amazon pointedContinue reading “Well, I’ve checked out.”
Tag Archives: memory
Dreams of amnesia.
TRIGGER WARNING: PHYSICAL ABUSE (but nothing too graphic, I don’t think…) This is weird. I had a dream that I was googling a handful of search terms together: trauma, scary, memory, and amnesia. Amnesia. When I woke up, I was like, shut the front door. So then I just accepted it as fact that there wasContinue reading “Dreams of amnesia.”
A million updates!
TRIGGER WARNING: DISCUSSION OF PHYSICAL ABUSE AND SLIGHT SEXUAL UNDERTONES So, there’s a lot going on with me (none of it horrid–it’s all good), so I can’t imagine how long it’ll take to write this blog post. It’s 3:47 now, so let’s find out. First of all, the fishies are all dead. (Oh. Actually, thatContinue reading “A million updates!”
My beautiful schizophrenic brain!
I’ve been spaced out all day, possibly because I went to therapy yesterday and then had nightmares all night. I kept dreaming I was being forced to relive hellacious scenarios: accidents, disfigurement, wreckage, and so forth; because I couldn’t come to terms with what had happened and felt the need to keep experiencing it untilContinue reading “My beautiful schizophrenic brain!”
Analysis.
TRIGGER WARNING: PHYSICAL ABUSE DISCUSSION (You can scroll down to the asterisks to bypass it.) I’ve been turning over the evidence in my mind, trying to decide whether or not my dad physically abused me; because he swears under oath that it never happened. So the possibilities are that he did abuse me, or I haveContinue reading “Analysis.”
