Well, I’ve checked out.

I’m a dissociative person. Today something happened that has me scared to death. My Amazon Prime membership, which I re-enrolled in two days ago, was canceled. I contacted Amazon, and they said that I canceled it. And it didn’t get canceled because it expired. It literally got canceled by magic. The email that Amazon pointedContinue reading “Well, I’ve checked out.”

Paranoia attack at the fish fry!

It occurs to me that I have some thought pattern issues. I’ve never realized that because I associate negative cognitive schemas (bad thought patterns, which I learned about as a psych major) with depression. I’m not depressed, and it’s just never dawned on me that I have cognitive paranoia issues. I keep thinking about theContinue reading “Paranoia attack at the fish fry!”

Breathing in Tight Spaces

I was a total mess yesterday. Total meltdown mode, and I couldn’t cope with anything at all. I sobbed for hours, and there was snot and sticky stuff in my mouth. Total mess. I was in a bizarre sort of dissociated haze. Time passed in large increments during which I kept crying and not cryingContinue reading “Breathing in Tight Spaces”

How bizarre!

I told my dad how triggered I’ve been lately because of how physically abusive he was to me as a kid, and he swore that it never happened, that I’ve created it all in my head. [Eyeroll.] As much as I’d love to believe that… I never forgot it after it happened. I didn’t justContinue reading “How bizarre!”

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