Triggered! Again.

TRIGGER WARNING: References to physical abuse with language that could be considered triggering, but no graphic descriptions.  And she’s been triggered again, folks. I was helping my mom yesterday for the second day in a row, and she was gushing on and on about how my evil sister’s going to have to show me howContinue reading “Triggered! Again.”

The self-appointed vessel.

This book is profound. It’s very optimistic and compassionate. It discusses the dynamics of victims and perpetrators, and the need for such dynamics. I used to have deep thoughts about that when I was eight or nine. I decided I’d rather be a victim, which I was–my parents were abusive–than a perpetrator, because I’d hateContinue reading “The self-appointed vessel.”

It all sounds so sensible until you really think about it.

Dear Amy: My ex-husband was physically abusive. I left him when our daughter was an infant. We divorced, and I had sole custody. When my daughter was 13, I moved out of state. She chose to live with her father when I moved. After moving in with him, she rebuffed my attempts to maintain aContinue reading “It all sounds so sensible until you really think about it.”

The right time to buy a lottery ticket.

My mother is a bitch. I’m sorry, but she is. I spent several hours with her today, first fetching her from her condo, which is twenty minutes in traffic one way, and then bringing her here for lunch and piano playing. I made her that salad I showed you all recently. She loved the salad,Continue reading “The right time to buy a lottery ticket.”

Can’t ever keep from falling apart…

Last night was dreadful. I’d spent the day exercising and eating canned foods. Late at night while I was in the bathroom, I heard someone acting hysterical on the other end of my dad’s landline phone. (He uses the speakerphone due to his near-total deafness.) I had a bad feeling when I exited the bathroom.Continue reading “Can’t ever keep from falling apart…”

I’ve got it! But I’m still angry.

I booked a talk session with my life coach, and I felt close to getting to the problem during our session, and then I lay in bed to take a nap, and it sort of hit me. I couldn’t understand why I was so upset about what happened, especially that particular part of it (whereContinue reading “I’ve got it! But I’m still angry.”

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