More human, less alien.

I’m feeling more human today, and thank God. It’s been a horrible month. I’m giving careful consideration to going on the pill, because my hormones are driving me crazy. I’m not on my period right now. Rather, I’m ovulating. And you know what? It’s just as bad. Die, hormones, die! I woke up as myContinue reading “More human, less alien.”

Trying to reason through the weirdness.

I’ve been musing more about Stevil, my neighbor, who instilled in me this recurring relationship pattern of male friendship going badly awry when I ask to be more than friends. I’ve been wondering about the conversation that started it all: Why did he ask me if I’d been sexually abused? He said, “You seem toContinue reading “Trying to reason through the weirdness.”

Does complete = empty and meaningless?

I’m a bad judge of character. I think I’ve figured it out now. That guy from the post office got fed up with my harassment of him, so he emailed me thusly: I’m sorry you feel that way. Just to interject here, he’s not sorry, ladies and gentlemen. Don’t fall for that. Work is work.Continue reading “Does complete = empty and meaningless?”

Really difficult menstrual cycle.

I went to the post office. Seeing that guy again filled me with hatred. Although, to get technical, I didn’t “see” him because I refused to even let his physical energy field enter into mine. All I perceived was low-level filth coming from across the counter. I’ve been thinking about this pattern I have, andContinue reading “Really difficult menstrual cycle.”

Off the deep end!!

Yeah, I’ve gone off the deep end. I’m on my period, I’ve been freshly rejected by a guy (for both love and friendship–he apparently values neither), and then something happened today to bring all of my anger to the surface. I went to the ice-skating rink, and alas, there was a sign out front sayingContinue reading “Off the deep end!!”

Wild drama all about!

I had a bit of a meltdown at the grocery store. Do you all remember that employee who I just hate? Like, starting last summer, she’d cordon off one of the U-Scan areas, but then she’d motion for us to walk in circles to reach the area, when it really would’ve been more sensible toContinue reading “Wild drama all about!”

Haven’t people gotten the message not to mess with me?

I’m experiencing some irritability. (Run! Hide! Save yourselves!) I just took a walk with my dad, and boy was I mean to him. I have no clue what went wrong. When we left the house and stood on the porch and he was lighting his cigar, he asked about the tracking information of the cigarsContinue reading “Haven’t people gotten the message not to mess with me?”

Meg’s still angry! (And who wouldn’t be?)

I slept late today, until 1:30, and had a hard time surfacing. I kept falling back into dreams. In particular, I dreamt my brother was living in our spare room in the basement, and for whatever reason, I was sleeping in his bed. And he’d catch me and say, “What the hell are you doing,Continue reading “Meg’s still angry! (And who wouldn’t be?)”

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