The week from hell is upon us, and it’s only Wednesday?!

If this week was a ship that I could valiantly leap off of, it would be “woman overboard!!!” in two seconds. Okay, it hasn’t been that bad. Meg, have you lost your mind? Pollyanna herself would quit playing the glad game at this point.  To recap a few points, on Monday I spent five mindnumbingContinue reading “The week from hell is upon us, and it’s only Wednesday?!”

Escape! Freedom!

Writing my memoirs here… I’m around eight, nine, ten years old here. I was troubled and unhappy. I woke up once in the middle of the night surrounded by bright orange flames. I knew I was going to burn alive. It would be unbearably painful, and if I were unlucky, I’d live… only to spendContinue reading “Escape! Freedom!”

Please excuse me. I’m sexually acting out.

Dear Amy: Recently, I noticed that the 13-year-old daughter of some close friends has been posting sexually provocative photos of herself on Instagram. This is a public account, and strange men make sexual comments on her posts. She responds with lewd remarks that couldn’t be printed in a family newspaper. I find it alarming, andContinue reading “Please excuse me. I’m sexually acting out.”

Help! I’ve been wrapped in cellophane for decades.

So, yeah, this is really depressing. I went to therapy today, and the therapist thinks I’m trapped in childhood. It makes sense. I have idealized views of sex as being spiritual and loving, but I can’t handle the mechanics of it or male nudity, for that matter. Yeah, I’m an overgrown child, like Michael Jackson.Continue reading “Help! I’ve been wrapped in cellophane for decades.”

The therapy’s going great!

TRIGGER WARNING: PHYSICAL ABUSE AND DISCUSSIONS OF CHILDHOOD SEXUALITY/FETISHES (but in the context of my life, since I’m obviously not interested in exploiting children…) So, I went to therapy yesterday. The therapist thinks that I have some form of early-childhood trauma from before the age of three. She  bases this on the fact that IContinue reading “The therapy’s going great!”

A million updates!

TRIGGER WARNING: DISCUSSION OF PHYSICAL ABUSE AND SLIGHT SEXUAL UNDERTONES  So, there’s a lot going on with me (none of it horrid–it’s all good), so I can’t imagine how long it’ll take to write this blog post. It’s 3:47 now, so let’s find out. First of all, the fishies are all dead. (Oh. Actually, thatContinue reading “A million updates!”

Where we find value.

So, for a handful of different reasons, I’ve been devaluing myself lately, but then my psychic friend, Ash, made me see how much value I have. It blew my mind. She reminded me of something I’d forgotten about myself. My life as a child and teen were pure hell, particularly starting at the age ofContinue reading “Where we find value.”

Unloved.

I’m really dragging. Nothing interests me, even though there are so many fun things I could be doing. Well, maybe not at this late hour, but in general. I’ve just quit caring about projects. The house is a mess, and that doesn’t include the dog fur that’s all over the place. I can’t keep upContinue reading “Unloved.”

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