The greatest thing we have to fear…

Huh. I was talking to a friend, and she had a freak-out over her fear of developing illnesses of any sort. I’d told her she had a short memory (meaning she’s not one to hold a grudge), and she said something like, “Don’t say that! I need my memory to work well!” And out came the anxiety. Oops.

I tried to explain the metaphorical meaning behind my words, and then I tried to put her mind at ease, but anxiety can be a vicious beast.

One thing I believe is that the universe bends over backward to prevent whatever we’re afraid of from happening to us. Is there a guarantee that, if you’re afraid of X, then X will never happen to you? No. It probably can’t be guaranteed. But what I sense is that the universe and all of our higher guides do everything they can to prevent something from happening that would genuinely terrify us.

My sense is that if Y number of people need to experience X bad thing happening (I’m getting algebraic here), then the universe distributes Y cases of X to Y number of people who aren’t terrified of it happening to them.

For example, I guess that Y number of people need to have accidents that land them in the ER, or else the healthcare industry would tank. (Just bear with me on this. It makes sense in my head.) So those accidents happen to people who won’t be unduly traumatized because their worst fear came to pass.

Of course, there’s also the element of increased safety if you’re that afraid of something. But I think this also applies to diseases, which can be harder to prevent. Like, I’m schizophrenic, and before I became schizophrenic, it didn’t scare me as a possibility. You know what did scare me? (And still does?) Meningitis. Now that’s some scary [bleep]. And any disabling physical illness that would land me in the hospital scared me, because I’m terrified (rather irrationally, perhaps) of doctors and nurses staring at my naked body. What do you know? With schizophrenia, you needn’t even take off your clothes to see the psych doc, so it’s all good.

You see what I mean? Whatever happens to us is usually something we can tolerate without being terrified that our worst nightmare is coming true. It just doesn’t seem to pass that way. Whatever you’re most afraid of in a phobic sense, on some level, your guardian angels sense it and try to protect you from experiencing it. That’s what I believe.

Of course, I’m highly medicated. If I were to go off my meds, my beliefs would change drastically, and I’d become scared and anxious, among other things. But that might be irrelevant to my argument. Not sure. Hmm… It’s just what I observe, though. Remember that advice column I blogged about a while back, about the woman with ALS (Lou Gehrig’s disease), which is a scary-as-hell disease, but all she was concerned about was her inactive sister? That’s exactly what I mean. Some people live in fear of ALS, but those people don’t get it. The people who get it are people who are steadfast enough to not feel terrified by their own diagnosis. And that’s a thing of beauty. Although her letter upset me because she was judging her sister, it also brought me comfort because it supported my worldview, inasmuch as I’ve described it here.

Oh, gotta run! It’s time to walk the puppy.

2 thoughts on “The greatest thing we have to fear…

  1. Oh dear, I’d always thought I must be one of the people most freaked out by memory and cognitive problems, but I really feel for your friend if just saying kind of metaphorically that she has a short memory puts her in freakout mode, that really sucks.
    Actually, I never really thought about it this way or not at length but it makes sense what you’re saying and it’s quite comforting and interesting. Like we were recently talking about how you find anxiety very difficult to deal with but paranoia is manageable, whereas for me anxiety is manageable but I don’t think full-blown paranoia would be as much. Maybe that also plays some role in my emetophobia and how I haven’t vomited in ages. I always think it’s because I’m so mentally blocked to do it and because of all the precautions I take but it could be more like that I’m simply not meant to vomit a lot because I’d go more nuts than I’m supposed to and wouldn’t be able to handle it. It’s actually also a belief in Christianity that God will never give you more than you can handle, and if He will, He will also give you the grace and everything you need to handle it.

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    1. Oh, that’s beautiful!! Thanks for commenting!! I knew it had to be Biblical somehow!! YAY!! Yeah, and that’s exactly right! I can tolerate paranoia, and you can tolerate anxiety!! It’s amazing!! And I do truly believe that you’re divinely protected from getting sick to your stomach!! YAY!! What belief could make me happier than to feel we’re cared about and watched over? I was reading a book chanelled by a higher spirit, and he was saying something like, “If you’re afraid of experiencing X, please work with us and avoid any circumstances where X could conceivably happen.” And that confirmed my view that the universe watches out for us based on whatever we’re afraid of, as well as other things!! YAY!! ❤

      In good news, I didn't blame myself for my friend's freakout, because I kind of agreed that I hadn't even meant what she "heard". I totally meant short memory as the opposite of, like, holding a grudge. But I care about her so much that as soon as her anxiety gets triggered, I try to talk her down!! Her main fear involves any sort of illness or injury. I should try to be more mindful of that!! 😮

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