I’ve won a DAZZLING BLOGGER award!! YAY!! Thank you so much, bosssy babe!! You the bossiest!
The Official Rules:
1. Thank the person who nominated you for The Dazzling Blogger award.
2. Link back to the original post.
3. Answer the seven questions that they asked on their blog post.
4. Make up seven new questions.
5. Nominate seven more people for The Dazzling Blogger award, who you think exemplifies excellent blogging skills.
Here are bosssy babe’s questions and my answers!
1. Do you have any regrets in your life and if so, what would you say is your biggest regret?
Yeah, I have a lot of regrets! My biggest regret involves the time that my dad, my sister, and I were out on the front porch watching a thunderstorm. (Oh, geez.) Lightning struck the telephone pole directly in front of where my dad was seated. I don’t know the exact logistics of what happened, but my sister and I were unharmed and unaffected (except that my modem was fried and needed to be replaced), but my dad lost his hearing. Everything started sounding like animated falsetto voices. He got hearing aids, but they don’t really help. If I could go back and change something, I’d prevent it from happening.
2. What did you believe as a young kid that was totally silly/wrong/untrue?
I had a lot of strange hallucinatory experiences that involved seeing things literally. Our dog got hit by a car and had internal bleeding but he didn’t look injured. However, I saw him as having his tummy flattened by a tire, because that’s what I thought had happened–that he literally got run over. And in preschool, the boy sitting behind me during classtime (we were learning about vowels) tipped back in his chair too far and hit the floor. I remember seeing my preschool teachers piece the shattered chunks of his bloody skull back together and saving him. Then there was the time when I was six years old or so when I saw an eyeball about the size of an orange. It was wathcing me and then it started gliding across the room toward me in the dark. (I had insomnia that night and was killing time in the living room.) I jumped up and fled to safety, and after that point I started wondering if my life was being recorded by higher beings (like the Akashic records, or something) who were always monitoring me (and everyone else) for posterity, or something. I had a lot of deep thoughts as a kid.
3. If you had a life motto, what would it be?
I’ve got a few! “What the hell, let yourself dwell,” is a favorite of mine! It’s kind of like, well, we shouldn’t wallow in self-pity all the freakin’ time, but it’s going to happen one way or another.
Another of my mottos is that people give of themselves what they can, meaning that it’s about the other person as far as how much they can offer you or do for you. I try to remind myself of that all the time!
4. What is one thing you still hope to accomplish at some point in your life?
Hmm… I’d love to win an award or a writing contest! I get really ambitious with the NYC Midnight contests! It would make my day to go far! I’m not sure what else!
5. What is one thing you worked so hard for or dreamed of that you were able to finally achieve or acquire? Was it as good as you thought it would be?
Well, I spent over six years taking a drug called Geodon after I had a psychotic break from reality (or became schizophrenic, however you want to put it). I tried multiple times to go off of it, but I wound up terrified of the Evil Spirits every single time. Living in fear isn’t fun. The fear came at sunset and stayed until I fell asleep or the sun rose, whichever happened first. I couldn’t conquer it and had to keep taking the drug.
I do love my medicines, but Geodon took away my creativity. I spent those six-and-a-half years bored out of my mind. I also forgot I’d ever been creative and had no clue (consciously) that the Geodon was at fault. I think on some level I knew, and that’s why I kept trying to go off it.
But the fear would always come back. During that time I postulated that I’d need Geodon for my whole life, and I couldn’t find any possible solution for not needing it. I saw my whole life stretching before me with my taking Geodon as an old lady on her deathbed. It was a grim feeling. And the boredom was horrid. I spent all my time watching TV and praying that I’d never run out of television content to watch. I never wrote any books or built any rainbow-colored furniture or anything else fun.
I went on Geodon around May or June of 2005. In late 2011, I joined a local group that could best be described as a cult. I don’t hold them in the highest regard, BUT they had me doing all these daily meditations that required amazing discipline and focus. I went all in with it. During one such meditation, I suddenly understood that there are no Evil Spirits. What I was really afraid of was the darker side of human nature. I felt chilled. I had a dream that night that I was terrified of a bomb and ran from it, but then I stopped and wondered why I was afraid, and I approached it and saw that it was harmless.
With Dr. Phlegm’s help, I tapered off of Geodon over a week or two, and no matter how low I went with the dosage, the fear was gone! I couldn’t believe it. I then had a divine creative reawakening which was ruined in early 2012 when my evil sister threw me into a wall. But I digress. (She really is a bad person. I should’ve been able to enjoy rediscovering my creativity, but she took that from me.)
6. If you could have one superpower, what would your power be and why?
I’d love to be able to go to spiritual realms by leaving my body, or that sort of thing! You know, I’d love to visit the afterlife and other places without actually having to wait until my life ends and I die! That would rock. Divine connection with higher guides, soulmates, ancestors, etc., would be wonderful!
7. Can money really buy happiness? Why or why not?
It buys a lot for me because I love spending money on my rainbowy universe and also creative ventures. But the thought of having unlimited funding seems a little scary to me for some reason.
It gives me great honor to bestow the DAZZLING BLOGGER award upon Emilia and Ashley Leia! I’m also sending it back to Bosssy Babe, but no pressure! None of you are under any obligation to participate, but if you’re feeling brave, here are your seven questions!
- If you won the lottery, like the mega millions, would you take the payout (which is substantially less money, but you get it all at once), or would you take the money in lifetime installments (but you get the whole total… eventually)? Like, you could get 10 million dollars over a long period of time, or you can have 6 million dollars right now! What would factor into your decision?
- If your hair could be naturally any color (like seriously any color at all), which color would you love your hair to be?
- If you were stranded on a desert island, would you rather have unlimited junk food (versus living off the land) or unlimited reading material?
- On which day of the week were you born? Do you know this without having to google it?
- What’s your earliest memory?
- Would you rather be too hot in summer, or too cold in winter? Which would be more tolerable?
- Have you ever witnessed two (or more) animals engaging in lewd acts? How lewd were they?
If anyone else out there wants to play, feel free! No pressure! Thank you so much, bosssy babe!! YAY!!