There aren’t words for how discouraged I am.
The injury to my shins hasn’t gone away. I’m pretty sure it was caused by spending time on the treadmill in shoes that were too heavy. I only wore them the one day, but I’m still having calf pain. So I finally realized I have to rest for several days (or for however long) and let it heal.
I’m about to burst into tears. I can’t take several days off exercising! I’ll never go back! I’ll lose my momentum and give up. It’s like when I eat a cookie, and then I slide down the slippery slope straight to junk food. Seriously, I’m about to start ugly crying. I know myself. This is disaster.
I don’t feel any thinner. I feel fat and helpless. I’m going to spend the whole weekend gaining weight again. It’s what I do. Damn it!