The three dwarf judges.

Hi there! Here I am. I have good news and bad news. I needed to be in the top 10 out of 100 in my group to make it to the finals of the 100-word event. I came in freakin’ twelfth place. Can anyone say ouch?! I’m in agony.

And then today the judges’ feedback came. Holy flip. My story was about Snow White, so I can fittingly say that the first judge was Grumpy, the second was Dopey, and the third was Happy. God bless Happy is all I can say here.

Grumpy Judge didn’t care for the story at all. He barely managed a kind word. Under what the judges like, he said it was an engaging take on a fairy tale. On what the judges feel needs work, he wrote a tome about how unexplained my apple-poison curse was. He was really miffed about it.

Dopey Judge said, “When you wrote that the pair lived happily ever after, who were you referring to? Sleepy and the prince? Doc and Snow White? Who?” Uh, no. I was referring to Snow White and the prince, but thanks for those alternative interpretations! [Facepalm.] I like to think it was implied.

Happy Judge just loved it!! Her commentary made my day! She appreciated my humor and everything!

So, yeah, that’s the bad news. Twelfth. [Insert dirty words here.] [And some more.] [Maybe a few more.] I can’t believe I came in that high, given that only one judge was in my corner! Wow!

The good news is that I went to therapy today for the second week and it went well. I think my therapist will help me resolve my issues.

I’m disappointed that my rainbow table hasn’t sold yet, but I just listed it yesterday. Geez! Of course it hasn’t sold yet. What I’d like to do is have a shop. There’s a huge art building in Louisville called the Mellwood Art Center, and they rent out shop space to people who have stuff they’ve made to sell. Sort of like a huge in-person etsy experience. Very artsy. A small room of 10′ x 10′ would rent for $130 a month + renter’s insurance.

Here’s the problem: I’ve toyed with this idea off and on, but I really need a business partner. I can’t make furniture and man the store and build a web site and print business cards and advertise and figure out how to take digital payments all on my own. I need someone else who’s willing to learn all the fun aspects of furniture building (to whatever extent he or she is comfortable) and help me out with the other aspects that I don’t know about either. If he or she knows all the business stuff, great. If not, I can ask my stepsister Celia for basic starters. She had the biggest shop there for years. She’d know all the ins and outs. She moved down south to Alabama, but I know she’d give me pointers. But still, I need a business partner. And it’s not just a need as much as a desire. I want someone to be invested in this stuff with me. Like, let’s make this happen! Show some enthusiasm!

I don’t care if the person doesn’t have money to put up. I could subtract whatever I venture from their cut, if that makes sense. I just don’t feel capable of doing it all on my own. I propositioned Ash, but she’s more interested in growing her Tarot business. (And she’s very, very talented at it. It’s eerie.) I don’t have many other local friendships or relationships to turn to. My intuition tells me that the universe might send me someone if the timing is right. In the meantime, I’ll keep building.

It’s hard to get a rhythm with furniture making. Often, it becomes an hourly task of painting or topcoating. And then I have to occupy myself elsewhere for an hour between coats. That never leaves a very productive feel, and heaven help me, I can never remember when it’s been an hour, either. [Eyeroll.] I’m not yet organized enough to be cutting for one project while painting for another. That might be asking too much of my brain. No huge deal.

I’d love to have a protege who I could teach the trade to. I’m self-taught (except for one class I took in how to make a small wooden reindeer). I’ve been doing it for long enough to know what’s not going to work; e.g., I’m terrible at applying wallpaper to plywood. My partner would be more than welcome to make suggestions for products and color schemes. We know me: rainbow, rainbow, rainbow! Another perspective could be useful. I doubt the job would ever offer more than supplemental income, so this person shouldn’t hope for a full-time living from it (but, hey, the sky’s the limit…).

Anyway, I haven’t gotten much done today. I’ve noticed that on therapy days, I go into processing mode afterward and space out. This isn’t a huge deal. It means I’m working through stuff subconsciously so my conscious mind just needs to rest. Oh! That would be another fun thing about working with me. I take choosing your own hours to the next level. (Although I guess that might change if we had to man the shop, although every individual tenant gets to pick when they’re open. Still, though, sales won’t happen when we’re not open.)

So that’s my fantasy. Since I have no idea how to find such a person, I’ll focus on creating some more furniture pieces and listing them on etsy.

I hope everyone out there reading this is having a great day!!

 

 

 

17 thoughts on “The three dwarf judges.

  1. Oh no! So sorry to hear you were twelfth! โ˜น I don’t understand the Dopey Judge’s problem. She must have a very intriguing way of thinking. For me, your ending was very straightforward and clear. Or maybe she just wanted to find something she didn’t like and couldn’t find an actual problem with your story.
    I’m glad your therapist seems helpful. I believe truly helpful therapists are like blue fluorites – very rare, expensive and sought after all the time. – I’m looking for a fluorite to my collection at the moment (not necessarily blue, as that would be quite pricey), hence the metaphor. ๐Ÿ˜€
    The business sounds great, but seriously a whole lot of hassle if you were to do it all on your own, so I do hope you can find a partner. Maybe you should look around on some social media, LinkedIn or something?
    I remember I had a bit of a similar thing going on on therapy days when I was in therapy and my brain would work a bit differently and get a little spacey, which is not something that would happen to me a lot in normal circumstances.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful comment!! I hope you’ve been doing well lately!!

      Yeah, I do agree that sometimes the judges wrack their brains for critical feedback. Like, “Hmm… I totally understood the story, but what might someone else not have understood?” which gets into ridiculously anal territory real fast. I’m not too bummed about it, though. Somehow I got over it really quickly and decided that I’m bound to win one of these someday!! (Go Meg!)

      Wow, your analogy to blue fluorites is amazingness!! I googled them and they’re gorgeous!! Wow!!

      Yeah, I was incredibly ungrounded last evening, and it led to relationship angst on my end. Ugh!! Hopefully things will get better soon!! I do think there’s something to the idea that therapy can sort of shut down your brain due to internal processing, ya know? I’m glad I’m not the only person who’s experienced that!!

      LinkedIn is a brilliant idea!!

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      1. Yeah thanks, things are going up and down but are mostly pretty well at the moment. Tomorrow I’m going for another sort of mini holiday just for the weekend, my Dad wants to get a camper van, or at least have a close look at one which is quite a bit away from us, so we’re going there and are also going for a bit of a trip in the area. Hope it’s gonna be better than our previous disastrous trip.
        I’m glad you’re not too bummed about this. ๐Ÿ™‚ And you can win the next time, or another time in the future, for sure!
        I guess generally things that can happen to a human brain after therapy can be a bit unpredictable and very interesting. All the weird dreams… When I was working with my first therapist – who perhaps wasn’t a blue fluorite but was definitely way better than the last one who had a problem with my blindness – I had such a thing that I would feel very random feelings after therapy, it felt like something I might have felt at some point in the past, both good and bad things, and they were so mini mini and short-lasting but could sometimes be very powerful and vivid. Like sometimes when you hear a piece of music (or I’ve heard a lot of people have something similar very strongly sometimes when they feel a familiar smell, but I myself don’t know that personally since I can’t smell), when a random mini memory pops up in your brain for a moment, only that felt a bit more intense and was only about feelings and not any other sensations, and could happen a few times during the day after therapy. These mini bits were very interesting to observe and some were actually very cool, not only yucky stuff you typically talk about in therapy, and didn’t even necessarily match what we were talking about during the session, I guess just a general brain clean was going on or something, lol.

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      2. Oooooh, camper vans are fun!! I used to always daydream as a kid about winning one on The Price is Right!! I’m excited that you guys might get one!! They have, like, tiny quarters and mini-everything, and they’re so neat and tidy and pristine.

        Wow, get out, you don’t smell anything?! It’s just too uncanny how much weird stuff you and I have in common. My sense of smell is very, very weak. I can smell stuff, but I often sense that most other people can do it much stronger than I can, that all I sense is a faint smell. Total weirdness. And weird how it’s not a “thing” like blindness or deafness.

        I hope you have so much fun on your mini-minivan-vacay tomorrow!! I bet you will!! Here’s hoping!! YAY!! Please report back, here or in your blog!!

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      3. We didn’t go anywhere in the end. Our boiler is leaking – for like the fifth time this year – so Dad has to deal with this. And also as it seems all the camper vans that he was considering to look at are either sold and about to be sold, so he won’t be able to get there in time from such a distance. So he’s still looking for something. He’s been wanting to get a camper van for ages but only now actually trying to do this and I personally am all for it, as this will allow us to travel with Misha, have our own accomodation and don’t have to fly. I’m generally not overly keen on travelling both because of all the changes involved and my vestibular system not dealing with it too well, but a car ride is easier than a flight or being on a ship/ferry, and with Misha I can travel to the other end of the world if need be.
        Wow, how weird that we both can’t smell! I guess there is such a thing, it’s called anosmia or hyposmia or something like this, but you hardly ever hear about someone having it, not as often as you do about deaf or blind people. Probably because it’s much less of a problem, at least for me the lack of sense of smell was never a problem. I actually only realised it fully that I can’t smell some years ago. Usually when people would ask me if I like a smell of something, or if I can feel it, I would be like: “Oh yes, what a beautiful smell!”, or if everyone was saying that something stinks I would chime in and also say that it stinks, but I never really understood what it feels like and what it actually means, and for a long time I thought that perhaps I just don’t know how to recognise smells, sort of haven’t learnt it for some reason. But since there doesn’t seem to be such a thing like learning to smell, just like you can’t learn to see or hear, you just either do or do not, it was clear I just don’t have the sense of smell. Or almost do not, because I can smell strong smells of chemicals (like perfumes and such) and cigarettes, ew. But then again, I don’t even know if I’m really smelling them because I feel it more in my airways than my nose. But I still sometimes say things like for example that Misha’s scent is beautiful, even though I have no idea about it, it just generally means that he is beautiful. ๐Ÿ˜€ And I don’t even know why I don’t have it haha.

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      4. Awwww! ๐Ÿ˜€ If there’s one thing I’m sure of, sense of smell or none, I’d wager anything that Misha smells like a nice snuggly lovebug of a kitten!! (Whatever that smells like!) ๐Ÿ˜€ I can smell some things if it’s really strong, but everyday scents seem to go right past me. And oddly, I don’t think little Mr. Kitty has a smell at all!! ๐Ÿ˜ฎ I could be wrong. I tend to do this thing (don’t try this at home, anyone) where I put alcohol-based mouthwash on some toilet paper and put it in my nose, up to my sinuses or thereabouts, because as a woodworker, I inhale sawdust sometimes. (If I had any sense, I’d just wear my freakin’ workshop mask.) I do that to prevent sinus infections courtesy of sawdust, and I know it might further kill my weak sense of smell, but I do it anyway. That said, I’ve only done it a few times (most woodworking sessions aren’t that… productive), and I’ve never had much smell to begin with.

        I’m sorry your fun trip was cancelled and that your boiler is leaking!! Too bad!! I do love the idea of you all being able to travel by road with the kitty in tow! I’m sure it would be high adventure for Misha!

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      5. Oh of course, Misha’s smell must be so beautiful, anyway Sofi always says so and Sofi has an excellent sense of smell, as does my Mum and they both say they could work for police instead of sniffer dogs. ๐Ÿ˜€
        Ugh, that sounds an interesting and intense way to help your sinuses, haha, but I guess could work. It probably can indeed kill your sense of smell as well but why care about something that already barely exists.

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    1. Yeah, I was bummed, but I was encouraged to get an honorable mention!! I mean, the judging for these contests is so unpredictable that you really never know. I could’ve easily not been on the list at all. And I sort of like the unpredictability because I’ve left other contests where I never progressed at all–that’s way too demoralizing. One thing I love about the NYC Midnight is that I feel I’m always in it (until I’m not), versus never having even a prayer.

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  2. You’re writing is wonderful, those judges opinions don’t matter. Your opinion of yoursrlf and what you do is the only thing that ever matter, ever.
    I know your table will sell, patience young grasshopper๐Ÿฆ— the right person is out there, I know it๐Ÿ˜Š
    I agree wholeheartedly with the above comment by @eirlysgwenllian about blue fluorite and hood therapists.
    Take care my funny and expressive friend๐Ÿ˜Šโค

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    1. Thank you so much for the support!! I do worry with my writing that I’m not clarifying all key points, and the judges seem to notice that. It’s a good reason why I need beta readers, who can “see” things I overlook!! (Massive shout-out to Ashley Leia, who helped me a lot with this story!! YAY!!) Readers are also sensitive to, “Oh come on, it wouldn’t have happened that way,” so I always try to write realistic interactions. (That doesn’t count adding magical realism–it just means that if you have people react in a way that’s not credible, reviewers will be all over you.) But that’s so kind of you to say I’m a great writer!!

      Thank you so much for saying my table will sell!! YAY!! I sure hope so!! You’ll be the first to know if/when it does!

      Yeah, Emilia’s wise beyond her years! (She’s eirlysgwenllian.) It’s mindblowing. She’s 23 but seems too wise for that age!

      You made a funny typo: “hood” therapists. Yeah, I gotta go travel to the hood for my therapy session!! We’re all gangsters here! H AH AH HA HA HA!!

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      1. Oh yes they’re part of a’hood haha! I ise the app mostly and I have anew phone. I’ve been making a ton of typos on it๐Ÿ˜œ

        It’s my pleasure Meg to always point out your strengths, that’s who I am๐Ÿ˜‰ Having readers proof your work is agreat idea, send me your copies and I will give you my feedback๐Ÿ˜

        Emilia sounds like my son Ty, an indigo child. These young people are light years ahead and before their time. They just seem to get things in an ultra mature way. It’s fascinating and so cool. My Ty gives me the best feedback always. He’s going to be 19 in 2 wks and yesterday got into an HVAC technical program! He will learn and be certified in heating and air conditioning in 9 months. He’s a very hands on learner like his Dad, we’re so proud of him.

        I’m really excited for you Meg, you have a lot of great things unfolding for you. Your near future feels very bright, many things are on the horizon for you๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ‘๐ŸŒˆ

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      2. Thank you so much, and happy rainbow time to all!! Your son Ty sounds like a wonderful young man!! You must’ve done a great job raising him!!

        With Emilia… hmm… weirdness… I’ve never tried to read her aura. Offhand, I’m thinking lavendar and aqua (pale) blue. I’ve heard of the indigo concept, but I’m not sure I’ve ever known any myself! Maybe I’ll meet your son someday!! Oh, hey, while we’re talking about fun aura colors, I think mine’s crystal (like a prism) which would HAVE to explain my fanaticism for rainbows, ya think?

        Oh wow, and your son got into a tech program? Congratulations!! Oh my gosh!! That’s wonderful!! Wow, YAY!!

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